Little Tidbits of Thought

1. This is totally random. I thought I'd see what 10 songs would pop up on my Itunes Library and this was the order:

Firework - Katy Perry

Sunrise - Nicole Nordeman

Better - Regina Spektor

4 In the Morning - Gwen Stefani

Resentment- Beyonce

Ready - Kelly Clarkson

I Gotta Feeling - Black Eyed Peas

Littlest Things - Lily Allen

Daydreamer - Adele

Shoots and Ladders - Korn

Man...Hahaha....I love how it started with Katy Perry and ended with Korn. Their styles of music couldn't be further apart than... well... than a chocolate chip cookie and a rock. :-)

2. I finished reading Mommie, Dearest. It's not a long book, but it took me a whole weekend to get through. I really should've been finished with it in like two days ago. But it's intense. It's not a book you can just run through. Reading about someone's abuse is not something I can just "run through". And yeah, in case you were wondering it's written by Joan Crawford's daughter Christina Crawford. I'm not even going to say if all the stuff written is true or not because it's not my story. I do find it interesting that regardless of our stories the vows and messages, the ways we learn to survive and so on are so very similar. It makes my heart hurt for my own story and for others.

3.

"I believe in the sun even when it is not shining...

in love even when I am alone...

and in God even when He is silent."

{Inscription found scratched in a wall in Germany by someone hiding from Nazi concentration camps.}

I saw this written on a block (it's a medium size square block that holds three tea candles at the top...it's beautiful!!) at Hallmark a couple weeks ago. I remember looking at it and just standing there. Those words were so powerful. Those words do not always feel true to me, but I desperately desire them to feel true all the time. I went ahead and bought it because I knew it's something I needed to see. Everyday. A constant reminder. Every time I look at it the world seems to just stop... I feel a quiet calm enter my being. It's a hushed stillness. A reminder that my God is always there. Even when I feel His silence so strongly. And I can believe that He's always here with every once of my being. It's easy to write that...and easy to believe in the good times...but it's hard to hold onto those words so tightly and believe them every day...no matter what.

4. Conversation A:

(I'm in the kitchen tearing and cutting up junk mail)

Nate: Babe...what are you tearing up??

Me: MY DIGNITY!!!

(said very dramatically while throwing paper in air)

Nate: Hahahahahaha!

(he comes up behind me and wraps his arms around me)

Nate: Oh Babe, I love you. Hahah.

Conversation B:

(the first part of this conversation was me telling Nate about a movie I saw on TCM about this dude who pretended to be crazy to get into an asylum to solve a murder and then at the end he goes crazy himself.)

Me: What would you do if I started seeing things that weren't there?

Nate: Well. I'd take you to a Psychologist.

Me: No. You would take me to a Psychiatrist.

Nate: What's the difference?

Me: A Psychiatrist can prescribe you medication.

Nate: Well at least the first could ask you about your feelings to figure out why you were crazy.

Me: Well it's a good thing I'm not. I mean, come on, if I were crazy would I be seeing that cat run across the street??

Nate: Where? (looks for cat on street then sees my mischievous face) Hahahaha! I cannot believe I just fell for that!!

Me: (i couldn't stop laughing at this point)

I'm so glad I can make my husband laugh with my goofiness! :-)

I love...

...that my husband can find and squash the hell out of internet viruses so I can get back to blogging. lol.

....Sugar, Sugar! Nate found this game and got to level three before he quit. I decided to try it and now I'm on level 29! Woot! I don't know why I'm obsessed with this game hahah... It's highly addictive if you're into games like this.

...Spending the whole day shopping. I went this past weekend to La Cantera and shopped for hours! And yeah, I got some pretty cute stuff. :-)

...finding cute decorations for our place!

...watching TCM. I've abandoned all my other channels and it's been TCM all the way. I seriously love the classics. When I was younger that's all I watched. My dad would take me to Hollywood Video and the library and instead of getting the "modern" movies we just got the "oldies". I remember there was a family my mom & I would house-sit for and their movie closet (yes, they had a literal movie closet) was filled with classics. That's where I fell in love with Deanna Durbin!

...that we're taking our first vacation this year! Well, exactly in 39 days! :-) I'm so excited! The last "vacation" we went on was our honeymoon. I can't wait! I can't wait! I can't wait!!!! Hahaha!

...that this year I'm turning 25! Yeah, I'm old now. But 25! It's pretty scary, but pretty awesome at the same time.

...that I have such crazy ass dreams when I sleep. I think that's one reason I love to sleep. My dreams are so wacky it's unbelievable. I still maintain my best dream was when I got married to Johnny Depp and we owned a zoo maintained by Oompa Loompas & a shrimp factory aaaand held grace groups for zombie-like people. Hahaha. Nate has never let me live down that I was married to Johnny Depp in my dream. Oh Lordy.

...watching Harry Potter with my favoritest girl in the whole world!

...waking up to my husband cuddling me before he has to get up to go to work. Mmm.

...my nose ring. It's cute and me.

...the opportunities I've had to watch two of the cutest little boys ever. It's made me realize how fun it's going to be when I have little boys!

...(and thanks to Anna texting me today about this) CAKE POPS!!!! Hahaha! Starbucks now sells cake pops. Next time you go in for your coffee just ask for one and experience the yuminess of cakepops. I really want to put one on a cupcake haha.