We're moving this weekend and I'm a mess. I would love nothing more than to snap my fingers and have this weekend be over and be comfortably settled into my new home. My head is hurting from so many thoughts and emotions rushing in and out. I would like to slip into oblivion right now. I keep floating between excitement about moving, feeling overwhelmed with all this shit that I keep boxing and boxing, wishing that I could sleep and yet, sleep keeps evading me, feeling alone and forgotten, struggling not to eat my stress...on and on...

I have felt a lot like this piggie lately...

I probably won't have internet for awhile so it'll prolly be quiet around here...
See y'all soon...

3 Years...

We knew each other for 8 years.
Pre-dated for 3 months.
Dated for 1 year.
Engaged for 6 months.
Married for 3 years.

There are so many stories and adventures to be told...

One thing is for certain I can't imagine life without him...



i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings


Now, Always, and Forever.

4 things I wanted to blog about...

So I couldn't figure out what I wanted to blog about today. So today's post is just some things I was trying to blog about and then couldn't think of anything else to go with it...fail. Haha.

1) I was walking over to the apartment office to pay the rent and listening to my ipod when I suddenly wanted an entourage of people behind me dancing to Gwen Stefani's Hollaback Girl . I seriously think that if I had a few drinks in me then I would have just done it by myself, but I didn't so I just pretended to dance around all ghetto while singing "Let me hear you say this shit is bananas. B-A-N-A-N-A-S!". I wonder if I ever did all my crazy things in real, real life if the magical reality show people would give me my own reality show.

(fyi, real real life is real life outside my house...i really do dance around "ghetto" in my house so therefore it doesn't count and it's not real, real life.)

2) My hubs and I were being real romantic (wink wink) and he totally ruined it with this conversation:

Nate: You're my angel
Me: You're my hero
(pause)
Nate: Hah. That's two of your shows that got canceled.
Me: Wha- Really?! Thanks, now I'm depressed!

Sigh. I get very close and involved with my favorite shows. I watch them over and over again. I cry at all the same emotional spots and laugh at all the same funny moments. I love my favorite characters with a passion and bitch at the others who fail to meet my expectations. Now I wasn't a huge fan of the show Angel, but I am a HUGE fan of Buffy and so therefore I love Angel. Heroes...sigh. I can't even began to tell you how happy this show made me. I literally cried when I heard that they were canceling the show. Rude. So if you like either show please join me in a moment of silence as we reminisce on their awesomeness... and if you don't know about them or don't care...well...skip the moment of silence.






3) I was watching Wipeout and one of the girls shouted out "I don't need to go to the zoo! My man is a beast!". I'm not really sure if she was meaning that as a compliment, but I'm gonna use it as one. My man is a beast...a sexy beast! I really should include a picture where he is looking all suave and Blue Steel (I heart Zoolander!!!), but I think that this shows how much fun we have together and I still think he's a sexy beast. Whoop-whoop! :-D

4) I think I am almost done refining my "celebration ink". I thought I had it figured out and then my tattoo guy pretty much told me that what I wanted I didn't really want. sigh. I hate when they are right. So I hit the drawing board again and now have three things I want and need quotes for... Actually it's only two things, but one of the them is a two-fold thing so that makes three things. Wow! Can you freakin believe how specific I am??!! Hahaha. Hopefully in the next week or two I will talk to him, figure out which one I'm gonna get, and schedule an appointment. Yes. I know. I don't have to schedule an appointment for a tattoo, but I'm very orderly (or weird whatever) like that. ;-P

Cupcakes!!

Well I got my cupcakes! Thank you Anna! :-) They were delicious and Nate and I enjoyed every single one of them. There were several times during this happy event that this one girl kept yelling "STOP EATING MY CUPCAKES!!" and this one boy kept laughing and running away with a precious cupcake in his mouth yelling "I'M NOT!!". Strange people.
I am happy to report that this possessive cupcake girl got the last cupcake!

Fyi, cupcakes and chocolate milk are a good combination.







And no, I usually do not document myself eating things. That would make me weird. ;-P But I felt that this was an appropriate time to look weird while eating cupcakes and then show the world. Hah.