Um. Wow.

Um. Wow. My heart is holding something very tightly right now. Well not really tightly...just when it comes to writing it down at least. It's nothing bad...just something good...and unexpected and honestly it just feels like God looked down and said "Yeah. I do care about you. I care so much I'm gonna blow your freaking mind with this and let you be in awe because I care. So much."

{and yes, in my world God says things like "blow your freaking mind" as well as other cool and random things lol. }

It's something small and yet so big and pulling at a part in my story. It feels so weird to say that I can feel warmth and tenderness in those cold places. There is a part of me that doesn't want to get too excited because then it might not happen and then I'll be wrong about God caring and I'll just be disappointed...hugely. I really feel like deleting all this. It feels silly.

Which way do I go? I think right now I just choose the God cares path because while it doesn't feel safer...it does feel warmer and sweeter.

Um. Wow.

It might just be the PMSing talking, but...

...I really want to smash my neighbor's head into his speakers until his skull breaks or just put him in a small room with millions of speakers playing his exceptionally loud, bass exploding horrible music until his eardrums burst and blood runs out of his sockets.

....I really want the stupid man I saw last night online saying that cupcakes are "stupid and ill-constructed" because he can't fit one in his pathetic mouth without getting frosting on his beard to asphyxiate on a cupcake. Maybe even on a cupcake crumb. Justice would be served for his stupidity.

....I really want to connect myself to a morphine thingy so the cramping just stops.

....I really want to eat a lot of sugar and some yummy food right now, but I'm trying to exercise some self-control and I iz hungry.


Don't mess with a girl on her period. I tend to get really hungry, horny, and think very violent thoughts about those who piss me off. Good thing I'm not really a Super Villain. The world would be in a lot of trouble right now.

If only I had a cupcake right now... sigh... And my husband (he's at work right now). We like to cuddle and talk about all the horrible things we would do if we were criminals or villains. We are quite a perfect match. :-)

*sigh of relief* My neighbor finally stopped playing his stupid music. Maybe I accidentally mind punched him into oblivion. Muahahahaha.

My Kitchen Aid: Dee Dee

May I present the newest addition to our family!!

This is my beautiful Kitchen Aid, Dee Dee.

Isn't she beautiful?! And yes, I made a batch of cupcakes once I pulled her outta her box! :-)